..sweet and spice & everything nice..

2011-07-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

current location: 18th floor of Wisma Genting

i wanna (make you feel my <3 )

where is "the end" of this chapter of life??

2010-11-24T05:34:00.001+08:00

one day you'll find yourself stop sobbing,

stop crying yourself to sleep,

stop shedding tear,
stop trying your very best to hold back the tears rolling in your eyes,
stop keeping track,
stop waiting for phone calls,
stop making phone calls
just stop.

simply because you got used to the intense pain in you
accepted the ugliest truth
realize that life still goes on
and no matter what, you are not going to have a say or change a thing.

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i couldn't agree with it, for once in my life

even if i could truly understand the intention behind all the sacrifices

i can't justify myself that there will be no repetition in the future

simple because TRUST has faded together with FAITH without acknowledgement

and i don't know how long they have been gone.

YES. i believe in second chances, even third and forth chances,

but what about unlimited chances to be given to someone?

perhaps its for me to find out this time.

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i never see this coming to me,

it just strike my life like a ~~thunderbolt~~ lightning

because there wasn't a single warning given to me

there wasn't any rain or strong wind or any changes in the weather

it was all sunny and bright and the next thing i know is...............a hurricane attack after a tornado

undoubtedly,

it sorta screw, ruin, and destroy me and every bits and pieces of my life

and the damage is so.......erm, extremely awful.

i did show sense of concern

but it doesn't seem to be appreciated, i suppose

eventually, i decided not to interrupt anymore

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i am not sure where will this decision lead me to
no clue, no idea, no hint, no guidance.....NOTHING
i could sense that the road ahead will somehow be dark and hard
and i will be living in sorrow for some time

its always easier said than done, of course.
there is still a long way for me to learn the essentials of forgive & forget
or maybe i just don't have the intention to do so
idk.
i need to be enlightened

the tide will turn, i know
but for the time being, please just let me be
i need to figure out a way
a way to talk myself out of this

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i don't wanna make things hard for anyone,
so i decided to share only my story,
but not my thoughts to people around me
faking a smile and just say "yeah, i'm fine" or "no worries, i'll be alright" is better in a sense
people will think that i got over it and they will move on with their life
no point causing additional problems to people who love me

nothing much, just a chick with attitude!

2010-11-11T22:54:00.001+08:00

I was thinking about her

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us

What we gunna be?

Open my eyes,

IT WAS ONLY JUST A DREAM...

-Nelly-

cry if you must

2010-11-08T04:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think, life must be kidding with me.

I've been walking in the dark for so long,

dealing with problems that people might not ever encounter in life,

going through stress from every aspect of life,

never ending worries pile up as time goes by..

seriously, i am tired.

"why is life treating me like this?" i ask myself

WHY ME?

Words hurt. Truth heals. Sometimes Both KILL.

2010-11-05T17:44:00.002+08:00

\\\my 88th post ///

I think perhaps that my life has not actually been so chaotic,after all.

It is merely this world that is chaotic,

bringing changes to us all that nobody could have anticipated.

The only way to really know, is to really let it go.

2010-10-25T14:12:00.000+08:00

okay, i decided that i'll blog more often than before.

no point having a blog and abandon most of the time right?

so, it will be just my thoughts this time :)

short post like this will do

am still alive but am barely breathing

2010-08-10T15:51:00.000+08:00

i escaped from the shithole and spend my weekend in Penang coz i seriously need to get away from a place like that and take a lil breather..
I need to feel the positive side of life, i need to know the purpose of holding on.

was looking back at all my July tweets after dinner,

came to realize there wasn't many cheerful tweets throughout the whole month after all

i have been whining in most of my tweets, thats the only place to whine without explanations.

rashes, pendant, ulcer, exam, assignments, train delayed, hot weather, higher restriction...etc

(those are the significant ones, the amount of the insignificant ones come in tonnes)

practically after the world cup final, i spend most of my time dealing with shits.

life give me no clue at all that i would be in such a deep shit

problem-solved-problem-solved-problem-problem-solv..-problem-solv..-problem-problem

where will all these problem lead me to?? sometimes i wonder

i really wish i could fast forward time a lil right now to see what is in the future

-pictures-

im not perfect, but i like it that way

2010-07-26T07:16:00.000+08:00

JULY, i don't like you!!!

ever since i moved to this place, a place where i used to call it love nest,

but now i've got a better name for it - SHITHOLE!! July starts to haunt me..

idk why.. shitz seems to happen to me more frequent than ever in this month..

am just stating the fact.

things never did run smoothly in July, NEVER..

Dear time, please move a lil faster...

i need a little breather, and a getaway to escape from all the problems..

scars you can't see are the hardest to heal

2010-07-26T06:19:00.001+08:00

you know, sometimes i really think that am a failure..

oh, god knows what happened to me,

i've lost items i love like.... once?twice? thrice??? or more than that in just half a year...

how to stop myself being emo n down when something REALLY precious and irreplaceable to me went missing and knowing that it will never come back to me..

idk...really.

& when i say its precious, i really mean it.

hmmphh,

is it really THAT hard for to me keep something which i like so much without losing it? tell me.

i'll do whatever it takes to bring it back.

the worst part is the time where knowing that i could do nothing to get it back, NOTHING AT ALL

no matter how hard i've tried, eventually i'll end up talking myself outta it and GIVE UP.

that'd be the most unendurable part to me..

dealing with the after-effect wasn't a great experience to go through as well

remembering how myself used to be so proud of it, wearing it all day and night, recalling all the reasons behind buying it often make me feel like dying..literally.

even after dayssss n weeksssss n monthsssss, i still feel sad bout it :(

sigh..the PEACE pendant, R.I.P.

No matter what it is you think, I’m not the kind of girl you think

2010-07-18T01:26:00.001+08:00

a very meaningful speech i adore so much in the movie, Twilight - Eclipse.
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“When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up.

Our things were answers like astronaut, president, or in my case, princess…

When we were ten, they asked us again.

We answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist…

But now that we've grown up, they want a more serious answer.

Well, how about this…

Who the hell knows?

This isn’t a time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes.

Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill.

Fall in love - a lot.

Major in philosophy because there’s no way to make a career out of that.

Change your mind. Then change it again because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can.

That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be…

We won’t have to guess. We’ll know.”

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If nothing is going right... GO LEFT!

2010-06-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

i should've known from the very start,

that eventually everything was going to go terribly wrong

and maybe......fall apart.

I know I'm not easy to love but could you try anyway?

2010-06-13T04:15:00.002+08:00

guess i'll skip blogging bout my semester break

there's nothing much actually, just some pixies

it takes ages to upload pics u know??

and i hate the process of waiting....
so just bear with it

maybe will blog about it when am in the mood :)

so, lets blog bout something special
how about... BLOOD DONATION?
yup, i donated 350ml of my blood to our national blood bank.
isn't that amazing? hahaha...
i totally have no idea at all why am donating blood to save lives in the first place
and can't believe that I did that in my life that as well..
i never thought i'd be kind and brave enough to donate blood
i don't know, i just think am not that kind of person..
maybe i don't understand myself well i guess
i felt like i was going to hell when am doing all the medical check ups
nothing in my mind but nervous!

oh, i had the weirdest thought when i was waiting for a vacant bed
and its something reallyyy LAME
i thought of vampires!!!!! too much of Twilight I know....
couldn't help that but wondering what if there's some vampires near by and the imagination goes on.....
and that thought never fail to make me laugh, laugh at how silly I can be :p

*big round of applause* for myself
GOOD TRY!

don't try to understand me, u will never succeed

2010-06-13T03:05:00.000+08:00

its time to give my blog some update

no updates for the entire May, i know.

i did try to update but most of the time the post will end up in the drafts,

and now i have like......70 over drafts on the list :)

haha..

that's ME.

so... started life as a final year student.

yup, year 3 student now I am and graduating in approx 11 months time

am happy in a way that am gonna have a brand new life after i grad

but in another way, i enjoy being a student.

i truly do.

I just want a simple explanation of what I feel inside

2010-06-13T02:51:00.001+08:00

--one of my drafts in May--

was wondering will all this ever be just an illusion?

idk...

i struggle as hard as I can for what i believe in.

and sometimes i don't even understand what I'm believing in

but still struggling HARD

sometimes,
i wish i could be better in expressing my feelings..

you can't spell awesome without me

2010-04-21T21:14:00.008+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason.

People change so that you can learn to let go,

things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right,

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself,

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

- Marilyn Monroe -

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its a wonderfool month. April. the end of my final semester for Year 2.

two more weeks to finals.5 killin subjects await me.in procrastinating stage still.

life's good.happie.cuz am not givin it a damn.small matters arise from time to time.but i know it's gonna be OK.

only if doing the right things will grant me happiness.or else i don't care bout right / wrong.

am doing things my way.knowing where my limits are.sticking to all sorts of restrictions in life unwillingly.

am GLEEful.delighted to be in your arms.drunk.positive.gained some weight.

kissed my ol' phone goodbye.in bonding stage with the new one.

need a hair cut badly.but feelin lazy to move my asss.

tryin to figure out things for sem break.but not much luck with that still.determined to find out a way.

Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.

2010-04-21T19:40:00.009+08:00

"Hi there, I’m a human being! What are you?" A monster!

there's even a happiness that makes the heart afraid

2010-04-13T11:23:00.004+08:00

just got home from 8am clz and got the urge to blog a lil

feeling kinda sticky due to the humid and hot weatherrr,

but still....decided to bear with it.

i hate the process of taking off & putting on my clothes A LOT!!

and taking shower in a desert seems like wasting all your time and effort spent in the bathroom...

somehow you'll be sweaty within seconds; get sticky within minutes and bcum a stinky ass within hours...

thts why sometimes i find myself like a fool, bathing thousand times a day

battling with the weather in the desert

and in the end, am always the loser..

well..

didn't sleep for the past 21hrs..

gonna ignore the stupid weather and drop dead on my bed once i come back from gym

something important is going on later.. *grinnn*

semester is gonna end in less than one month time

which means??

love me unconditionally, will you?

2010-04-06T03:01:00.003+08:00

just another pair of ordinary sandals

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i need a place to whine but trying not to sound pathetic

hmmm...COMPLICATIONSS. i know.

am feeling down.upset.grumpy.moody.sad.sulky.miserable......

whatever!

--our love is a promise and that promise is forever--

2010-03-30T21:01:00.014+08:00

was looking back at ol' pictures

and found all this silly ones

19/06/2009 @ Desmond's birthday

25/06/2009, drinking session @ 21st

03/08/2009 @ Funfair

08/08/2009, daddy's birthday @ The Ship

15/08/2009, party after exam @ Coco Banana

01/10/2009 @ Sunway Lagoon

24/12/2009, Christmas buffet @ Sunway Hotel

16/01/2010, My 20first birthday @ homee

13/02/2010, reunion dinner @ home sweet home

a special dedication to YOU

2010-03-18T02:36:00.003+08:00

a song that I listen to every night before I sleep :]

..Thank you for loving me..

There cannot be a crisis this week. My schedule is already full.

2010-03-15T18:54:00.014+08:00

well.. well.. well..

the city girl is back in the town!

glad that am finally able squeeze out some time to go back to my home SWEET home

(p/s: HE's along with me for this trip)

camwhoring

my youngest sis (i call her 9000sui) and ME

introducing my dearest mummy!!

spot that "i hate shopping" face >.<

*i hate shopping* face

cuddleee with my bed, manja with mum a lil, & Ts with daddy are the best things ever!

oh ya, and mum's home cook food too!!

for the first time am craving for home cook fooood..

(mummy, u're da best cook in the world, no doubt bout it =p)

its just that am always a big fan of McD or fast food i should say =p

but this trip am loving and craving for home cook fooodies XD

curry fish head..*thumbs up*

hmm, March is really a hectic month for me, exams on almost every weekend :(

luckily that my mum still able to recognize her daughter, bt i noe she did freak out a lil =p

i must have looked very tired and worn out...

so,

shop, shop, shop, and shop as if there's no tomorrow... is wat i did for the entire weekend XD

and i find this is the most effective way to release stress and tension..haha

and i'm now back in the desert with a hope and a smiley face :)

things will be good throughout the week, am positive!

at least for now, the weather is nice and i guess there's still more to come? (greedy as always)

randommm

"You will never know how special you are to me.

You are like the honey from the bee."

the truth makes everything seem like a lie

2010-03-11T04:10:00.009+08:00

with just a blink of an eye, it's March already (time flies)

February was short, but it was incredibly awesome in some way :]

well, March is a tad bit more hectic,

with all the assignments due and mid terms,

not to mention those sleepless nights and crazy (scorching hot!) weatherrrr in this place...

surprisingly, life is still bearable and i find myself looking forward to tomorrow..

there are new colors added into my life, TRUE COLORS!!!!

and apparently life couldn't be any better!

sometimes its just too good to be true and i hope things will last (GREEDY!!) =P

guess what?!?!

i think i sorta grin XD, smile :), giggles *-* and laugh :D more than ever in this dreadful place,

maybe bcuz all this while i wasn't expecting and demanding much from it,

and so happen that everything turns out to be positive

it sorta brightens up my life like A LOT!!!

but

sometimes, am actually afraid when life turns out to be too good

and I have to constantly remind myself "NOT TO take things for granted"

what if one day the world turn to a mighty stranger?

but guess I'd rather hurt than feeling nothing at all :]

I HAVE DECIDED TO LOOK BEYOND IMPERFECTION

How bout a round of applause?

2010-02-08T19:37:00.004+08:00

well.... well... well..

apparently, am adapting myself with almost everything here :)

i go thru this process almost every semester, and lemme tell u, it SUCKS!!!

Saturday afternoon @ Mt. Kiara

lunch @ Delicious with mama

life is gonna be miserable again, but in a better way this time..

assignments, mid-terms, daily activities, and etc are gonna make me a busy bee for the next couple of weeks..

i can foresee sleepless nightSSSS ahead :)

I used to have a handle on life,

but it broke..

for YOU

2010-02-04T23:28:00.005+08:00

04-02-2010

Find a guy :

who calls you beautiful instead of hot,

who calls you back when you hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.

One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU...

The one who turns to his friends and says, thats HER...

i am not sure there are how many of them out there, but I've got one for myself!!

2010-01-26T01:47:00.005+08:00

i decided to blog. Yep, after sooo long~~

you know what? I've got nothing better to do ;[

Well , from now on, am bloggin as an official adult,

because Imma 21 yrs old YOUNG lady now!!! (so fast)

means what? am another year nearer to death, tht's all!

and fools like me throw a party to celebrate occasion like this :] (smart ass)

Sowh... holiday s'over,

came back to this desert & dragged myself to uni almost everyday

no motivation to attend lectures neither tutorials.. time pass so slowly here, y is it so?

I miss KL, I always do when I'm in such place, just can't wait to go back n have fun you know

it's kinda hard for me to be cheerful, i wonder will i ever miss here after I grad....

is the weather here tht screw everything up i guess. it's scorching, burning HOT!! ewww

and of coz, am gonna look like a piece of charcoal 1 yr later, tht is also y i cabut back to KL whenever its possible;p

so, generally, this is my life, for at least 3 months time

Where is the “good” in goodbye?

2009-11-24T16:01:00.004+08:00

| just a short update |

mid term test-DONE,

three more weeks to finals,

finals fall on the 12th,

means??

gotta say bye bye to Zouk Out in Sg,

which makes me reeeeeally sad, of course it is ;[

yet to have plans for Christmas and New Year...

All i gotta do now is focus on my finals

a lot of effort needed for that ;p

the hardest thing to say is "Bye Bye"

2009-11-09T04:19:00.003+08:00

1st November 2009 [sunday@rainy]

i didn't know life could be so fated

i didn't know life could be so fragile

i didn't know I've taken so many things for granted

i didn't know I would feel so sad for someone I hardly know

I didn't know someone will leave without saying "GoodBye"

i didn't know death could be so easy

i didn't know why my tears could flow endlessly

i didn't know they would leave the world behind them

i didn't know what would happen next

i didn't know how to react

i didn't know what to think

i didn't know I've prayed so hard for them but doesn't help at all

i didn't know the moment I'm doing something so random at home, they are in danger

i didn't know it will bring such a big impact to me, and my life

i didn't know how to accept a fact like it is

i didn't know I would receive such message when I'm so excited about my curly hair

i didn't know life is so unpredictable

i didn't know they deserve such ending

i didn't know they would leave so soon

R.I.P

James Khor,
you will always be missed..

Death solves all problems: no man, no problem.

2009-10-28T23:22:00.008+08:00

[WEDNESDAY] @ [rainy]

just anotha random post,

since i've got nothing better to do..

i spent the entire day doing nothing.

OH RIGHT, i attended my class. that's all...

Do you believe in love at first sight

or do i have to walk by again?

2009-10-26T02:29:00.007+08:00

back from Aussie, everything is back to normal

yea, so very normal..

result wasn't up to my expectation, wasn't bad if compared with others,

i asked myself, what do i want??

there's no answer for that, and am not looking for it either...

came back to uni, nothing has changed,

the trees did not grew taller. no, not at all...

am gonna leave this place soon, before the tree grow any taller

i know i will miss my life here, definitely will!!

"when the power of LOVE
overcomes
the love of POWER
the world will know PEACE"

To live life well, is the biggest challenge in life

2009-09-24T17:58:00.010+08:00

dreams never come through in a few hours time or whatsoever,
we work hard, to realize our dream,
but did we often ask ourselves, "are we on the right track?"

why not give ourselves a minute?
a minute to think,
think of what we want.....

why not give ourselves a minute?
a minute to ask,
ask what we actually want in life...

why not give ourselves a minute?
a minute to look back,
look back on what we've done for the past couple of years...

if life isn't challenging, then that is not life..
why not give time some time
slow down your life for a minute, and begin the next minute with positive energy
learn how to "Pause"

give time some TIME

2009-09-22T22:34:00.004+08:00

so.close.

am so close to death

2 more papers to go, and i gotta admit am SO not prepared....

well, i just can't find a motivation to start study ; [

i need motivations, or a motivator perhaps..

staying at home, my OWN home is perf

my house is so HOUSE, so HOME,

even though problems arise from time to time...

my daddy and mummy..they're great, i LOVEEEEE them (muakss muakss) ;]

i feel sad every time i have to leave and go where i should stay

hmmm...this is life.

ok, i know, seriously,

i gotta stop blogging, and get the notes back to my hand ;p

i want to know what love is;

i want you to show me

3 more steps to eternity

2009-09-15T17:59:00.005+08:00

i miss my lappie very much, no doubt about that ; |
i just can't do much stuff without the existence of my lurveliest lappie,
but at least, i can still blog, tweet, check mails, FB, MSN...

Malaysia Studies paper DOWN!!!!!!
not a tough one tho, but the stress somehow reduced a lil
well, guess y'all know....am not good in Malay, & i hate Malay !
those coming papers will be a tough one,
preparing myself for a tough fight with the exam is really kinda T.O.U.G.H.!!!!
gotta kick the coming 3 paper's asses as hard as i could!!

*motivation needed badly*
so, what about????
"I'm not telling you it is going to be easy - I'm telling you it's going to be worth it"

-- Art Williams

"Strength of mind is exercise, not rest."
-Alexander Pope

"Doubt whom you will, but never doubt yourself."
-Christian Nestell Bovee

"Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work."
- Thomas Alva Edison

"The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places."
- Unknown

"Neither you nor the world knows what you can do until you have tried."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"A professional writer is an amateur who didn't quit."
- Richard Bach

"Never give in. Never. Never. Never. Never."
- Winston Churchill

"I will never give in until the day that I die. I'll get myself some independence, carve out a future with my two bare hands. "
- The Alarm
feel better?? i guess so... ;]

no way to help but am gonna look like a walking zombie for the time being...
stiff neck, headache & droopy eyes accompanied by notes, highlighters, & dictionary..
~this is life, life as a uni students ~ (but somehow, i like it)

happy semester break is well on its way ;]
but at the same time, my money is flying away ;[

am not joking

2009-09-14T03:35:00.007+08:00

its 3.35am in the mornin!!
guess what?!?
am still studying!
yeap, STUDYING for Pengajian Malaysia final on Tuesday!!

~sleepyhead~

~the notes~

~another fatty housemate of mine preparing for his sociology paper~

*off to study*( i shldn't be blogging)
bhyez

wake me up, when September ends

2009-09-09T21:56:00.003+08:00

i blog,

because its a norm to blog on SPECIAL day

special as in today is 09-09-2009 ;] (wow, really S.P.E.C.I.A.L *_^)

well, there's no pictures to be uploaded

am not using my lurveley lappie

am using my home PC, a PC almost a decade old!!

this week (or shld i say this whole month) has been a suffering one,

really suffering,

really really suffering,

really really really suffering...

imma just have to endure this every stinking day in September

everything will be perfect in October, am pretty certain bout that ;p

live life to the fullest, as if there is no tomorrow

this is how life should be

2009-08-16T20:31:00.010+08:00

submitted and completed all the mid terms and assignments

finals are still 3 weeks away

so, its the best time to party and play!! (i guess )

red wines, friends, music, dance have made my saturday night a perfect one,

so damn perfect u know?

even though its pretty tiring, i still enjoyed myself,

yea, till the MAX ;]

cam-whoring in the toilet ;]

Cheersss

the one who sleeps beside me

another check point

2009-08-06T02:54:00.005+08:00

4th of August - Tuesday

well, its a BIG day for ME & HIM,

Our 2nd anniversary !

We've been together for 365*2 days OFFICIALLY :]

the *officially* word is pretty important (*winks*)

[ I cherished every moment spent together with him,every laughter we had, and every single step we moved forward with our hands held tight,I'm glad that it was him to be by my side when I needed him..." I LOVE YOU, MY DARL " ]

so here, a small little poem for my another 1/2

.............presenting.................

Reasons Why
Our love is the long lasting kind;We’ve been together quite awhile.
I love you for so many things,
Your voice, your touch, your kiss, your smile.

You accept me as I am;
I can relax and just be me.
Even when my quirks come out,
You think they’re cute; you let me be.

With you, there’s nothing to resist;
You’re irresistible to me.
I’m drawn to you in total trust;
I give myself to you willingly.

Your sweet devotion never fails;
You view me with a patient heart.
You love me, dear, no matter what.
You’ve been that way right from the start.

Those are just a few reasons why
I’ll always love you like I do.
We’ll have a lifetime full of love,
And it will happen because of you.

By Joanna Fuchs

time was once meant so much to me

2009-08-06T02:30:00.006+08:00

Life has been a hectic one to me since dunno when,

am totally exhausted and extremely worn-out...

mostly rushing assignment,

studying for mid-terms,

preparing for presentations,

and apparently, there are still tons of work to be done...

i could hardly sleep for the past couple of weeks

and now,

i look like as if am 10 years older :[

July is over, that is why i'm back

2009-08-03T14:35:00.005+08:00

finally, its August..
i've survived through the toughest 31 days in the year :]

i skipped blogging in July simply because i never like July..
i figure it is not really necessary to blog..

July has made my life gone mad, it really did....
no public holidays, assignments, mid-terms, presentations, all the sleepless nights and etc.....

outta SIGHT, outta MIND??

2009-07-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

lotsa things are bothering me lately,
all am able to do is not to bring any additional problems...
am solving my own probs, am figuring out a way :[

perhaps,
a MIRACLE is what i needed..
i don't want to see 'em suffer, i don't want to see 'em sad
i feel 1000x sadder to see 'em suffer....
but,
its beyond my control,
am no where near 'em....

i chicken-ed out, am such a coward..
i looked for an excuse to escape...................

I am not what I think of MYSELF

2009-07-06T17:56:00.003+08:00

oh c'mon, am E.M.O. again

I have no control over things and not being nice to him
in the past couple of days(at least throughout the weekend) , am certain bout that :"[

now,
i see myself at a crossroads where am left with two alternatives:

follow and listen to my <3>

and left my problems being unsolved..

stress and admit i can
do nothing about it.. till now,
i still can't think of a way..

the result of oVeReStImAtInG myself,
taking "dilemmas" as a challenge in a situation where I have
no control over the most dominant part of the matter..
and now,
am just about to give up and say "I S-U-R-R-E-N-D-E-R"

i wanna stay out of the mess for Awhile

i wish fairy tales were true because of ~YOU~

2009-07-03T11:34:00.006+08:00

it's a common issue,
and now I'd encountered it..

words spoke out unintentionally,

perhaps,

they don't mean to hurt someone's feeling,

but more often than not,

it does..

UNDENIABLY,

the impact on the word is INCREDIBly strong...

Its neither the first nor second time,

but

every time i came across this,

am a lil bit lightheaded

its sort tearing up my heart but not to the extent of breaking it,

and eventually

the lil fragile organ that pumps 24/7 in my body twinged..

"I don't mean it,
but I must have behaved and acted that way,

that unaccepted way..............."

Oh... YES!!!!

2009-06-29T17:03:00.002+08:00

i've GOT it!!!

something am longing for it

Sony Cyber Shot T90

the BLACK one

with the WHITE leather case

i wanted a red one, but i couldn't find it..

somehow,

it goes well with the white one too :}

more pictures are coming from this cool gadget.....

am lovin' every part of it...

am gonna bring it to every where I go

and

its gonna bring some fun to me yea...

an extremely emo post (ignore it)

2009-06-24T12:22:00.003+08:00

Oh well,

^Am Greedy^

Pretty sure 'bout that...

Why am I so easily in love with all stuffs around me??

I can't help but to want 'em all..

I've tried so hard no to want 'em

I've tried so hard not to think of 'em

I've tried so hard to control my mind

but in the end,

I failed
(no way for it to be positive ryte?? i think so..)

Am I a shopaholic??

Or I'm just plain crayzeeee??

Good things are coming to me..

I know it without a doubt
.
.
.
.
.
My 2nd year anniversary is coming soon

My trip to Perth is coming soon

The new movie New Moon is coming soon (its kinda lame)

etcetera

and maybe

I will be happy sooooooooooooon....

i am still alive

2009-06-24T11:42:00.005+08:00

Yeah, I've been MIA (missin in action) for sometime,
and,
am back :}

Spent a weekend in KL with my boy,

He participated in the KTAR Water Polo Competiton,
and that's the main reason why he's in KL :p

and now, he's having a hard time due the overexposure to the direct sunlight
[in short-its called sun burn] :}
and he's at least a few shade darker, more like a Thai now :}

Celebrated Father's Day in Daorae Korean Restaurant

Nice food and nice environment
but it somehow burn a hole in my not so loaded pocket :p
"I Love You Dad, I Always Do,
You are the greatest father in the world.."

as if it will rain

2009-06-10T16:42:00.006+08:00

Temperature: 33 degree Celsius
Wind: S at 11 km/h
Humidity: 63%

热`H-O-T`热
referring to the sun rather than the body of any chicks in the street!!!
am looking for a word to describe the hotness I feel
unbearable?
horrible??
terrible???
it seems impossible for me to put it into words...

...IMAGINE...
. . .
yourself laying on your bed
wearing a spaghetti top and a lil girl boxer
a table fan with another ceiling fan running at its max
a play list playing all the songs you love
holding a story book you find it irresistible
a cold drink placed just right beside you
wow....
isn't that wonderful??
sounds nice, peace and relaxing

BUT. BUT .BUT. BUT. BUT

almost every part of your body is SWEATING...
your sweat soak thru your outfit, wet your hair, and even your bedsheets dampened
sweat everywhere
and its so........(again,out of words to use)

the only thing i know is:

THE WEATHER IS DRIVIN ME INSANE

how not to be cranky, mad, grumpy, angry or whatsoever...

am sick of it

tomorrow is there for me

2009-06-02T17:09:00.005+08:00

started my first day of school, everything on track...

nothing impressive..

the result for not having a good night sleep yesterday can be easily seen from my face

eyes are swollen, again....

*tomorrow will be a better one*

June, 1st

2009-06-01T21:49:00.004+08:00

Yea,
everyone knows its first of June, nothing so special bout it...
but to me,
am back in Kampar AGAIN
its AGAIN
after one month of holidays
spent almost a week in S'pore,with my hunny
to me,
it seemed to be more to a city than a country :}
a nice trip, tho.....

the rest of my break was normal, nothing worth mentioning,
hunny back to Penang with his family,
am wid my family too, in KL,
but
we are 330 over kilometers away from each other..
not seeing him in my holidays brings no fun to me

until,
i bought a book back from bookstore,
and
started my date with the vampire :} [blush,again]
since then,
i had my things done in the noon
watched dramas with family after dinner
and
i spent the rest of my time SMS with my hunny & date the vampire [wink]
until I found my mind filled with things all bout the vampire ;}

first day in Kampar was dreadful,
couldn't sleep well at night,
the weather here is just way too hot,
as if the sun is just two feet above your head,
and the sky turned black just because its suppose to be black at night,
not cooling, not windy at all!!!

the vampire left his girl,
because a lion will somehow kill the lamb one day,
and he doesn't want that to happen..
my tears flow out and wet my blanket
am pretty sure that i look like a stupid girl with my eyes swollen,
and stuff....

i need time to get used to the weather and the environment here again..
tomorrow,
my new semester commence,
am a Year 2 student now,
certainly,
there will be lots of new faces in uni
but not really looking forward to it :)
class is pack for tomorrow
and i will somehow, SURVIVE....

T-W-I-L-I-G-H-T

2009-06-01T20:18:00.002+08:00

Am so crazily in love (*blush*) with Edward Cullen ,a perfect guy that every girls want....

addicted to the story of Twilight,
a love story about a vampire and a girl
or maybe,
a story where a lion fall in love with a lamb:}

i missed the movie when it was still screening,
but,
i went to the bookstore to get that book..

guess what?!?!

i C-A-N-'T stop reading,
for the very FIRST time, i don't want to leave my storybook....

finish Twilight in two days time and got myself New Moon to continue,
Eclipse and Breaking Dawn is still waitin for me to bring 'em back from the bookstore :}

but sad to say,
I'm already back in Kampar
a place where there's no bookstore in the town,
so,
i'm gonna read this book Reeeeeal slow
so that i won't be out of books to read...
regret for not buying the whole Twilight Saga at one go :{

i know i'm crazeeah,
because the story is drivin me CRAYZEEEEEEEE
yeah,
Im doing it, still..

they fall in love and got together
to
Edward love Bella to his fullest
and
he leave her for her safety,
but
making them miss each other so much
and
to be continue..........

am pretty sure that
it doesn't need a movie to make it my all time favorite

Successful or Suckcessful ?

2009-05-26T21:15:00.003+08:00

Where our life will lead us to?

No one has the accurate answer for this question, I guess..

Some are born to be a king but some to be a slave

Some are rich while some are poor

Some are from single parent family while some don’t even have a family

Indeed,

We are born to be SOMEONE in this world

Every one of us plays a different character here

I, myself come from a not so wealthy family

I with another 2 younger sistas

Parents provide adequate education to us

And that is the best thing they are capable to give us

We don’t have thousands acres of lands,

Registered companies, neither bungalows

Even if we have, education is still the most valuable amongst ‘em all

But each of us comes to a different situation now

We have the same parents,

Stay under the same roof

Eat the same dishes

Speaks the same language

But behave in a totally different way

I don’t have a word in my mind to describe this

Our future will be different from each other

Our visions and dreams differs as well

Somehow, I hope everyone of us lead a good life in the future

I do and I really do

Those who have dream are encouraged to pursue their dream

Provided that the dream are attainable and achievable

I, myself here have my own dream too

And I’m determined to achieve it, with everything I have

In order to accomplish my goals,

I always ask myself plenty of questions whenever I am

Split my vision into missions

I need to repeat my goal to myself as time goes by

Why brand less handbag but not Coach?

Why Proton but not BMW?

Why “buatan Malaysia” but not “bukan buatan Malaysia”?

Why not semi-D instead of wooden hut?

Why not splurge instead of spend?

When I have the ability to do so..

But but but but but,

I ‘m not going to achieve these in one or two years time

but

Twenty or thirty years time

Neither by committing crimes nor running illegal business

But

Gain knowledge then experience

I admit,

I’m materialistic

But

Not selfish (am really not)

I need to plan for my future

I need to strive for my future

I want a good life

I want a successful life

I love spending

I love everything

In order to balanced up my life

I must not be blinded by all my missions

I bear in mind that love do exist in the world

And

I strongly believe in love

In the process of attaining our goals,

We must also cares how others feel

Especially our parents, our partners

We choose our path, and do what we think is right

But when someone oppose

We should stop and think

They are peoples who love us

They don’t want to see us fail

Parents

They want the best for every one of us

Sometimes

They are over protective

They are not up to date

They do not know what we want

They scold

They cane

They punish

They nag

They do all sorts of silly things

But, after all

They love us more than anyone does.

We have only one life,

And

Same goes to them

They have only one chance to be a parent

They brought us to this world,

They give us what we have,

So,

Why not we understand them instead of they understand us?

Sometimes

We lost ourselves

We might be trapped in the world of fantasy

Believing ourselves can

Walk like a super model in the “America’s next top model” reality show

Sing like Britney Spears

Spend like Paris Hilton

We might be tempted by the lavish life people is living

Friends driving BMW to attend classes

Carrying PRADA, COACH and GUCCI

Buy as if shopping center is having great sale throughout the year

Live life without budget

Taste all sort of new upcoming restaurants in the city

But

We are not them

We are not the same

Why compare ourselves with people who are standing at a totally different position with us?

Those who are same age of us and living life luxuriously are mostly come from rich family

The others probably strive and work hard to achieve who they are in today’s world

Somehow it will come to us if we are living our live like others

Work when it’s time to work

Play when it’s time to play

Study when it’s time to study

Respect and place family in the first place all the time!!!!!

NO HURRY!!!!

After so long

2009-05-11T00:04:00.007+08:00

At LAST!!!! I decided to have a new post in my long left out blog

Decided to make it a special post by not organizing my THOUGHTS in a common way

(in 1 paragraph, start to think that its old fashioned..but I would still prefer writing in that way)

Not a long one tho but at least I update it..

Final exam is over... fuh, finally!!!!

not an easy one I would say...

maybe its because that i'm not well prepared

1st paper - Financial Information for Management

i scored C in my foundation yr, sad but still have admit that I'm no good at it!!

2nd paper - Principles of Macroeconomics

this is one of the easiest paper to score in all the subject for this sem, I think..

3rd paper - Quantitative Techniques

most of the art students hates this subject, and same goes to me :P

4th paper - Principles of Business Management

oh gord, this subject kills everyone of us, especially in the process of memorizing!!!!!

5th paper and also the last one - Finacial Accounting Framework II

just one word-TOUGH

my daily routine during my exam and study week was freakin crazy!!

wake up - eat - study - eat - sleep

and that continues for almost 3 weeks

and I MANAGED TO SURVIVE!!!!!!

the result wont be bad, but wont be good as well, bcuz of last min study!!!

So now,

3 weeks break for me to relax and enjoy!!!!

S'pore I will be coming in 4 days time!!!!!

haven't been to S'pore for at least 10 years I think..

Gonna really enjoy it this time

but,

going on a budget tour, so won't be able to SPLURGE on items that I like..

fine,I'll buy from Bugis street then!!!

hahaha

thats all for this post, will update when I'm free *.*

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2009-01-08T02:27:00.002+08:00

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I'm NOT happy

2008-12-20T00:45:00.007+08:00

I'm sorry, things aren't getting better here :( Not even a lil bit better, what can I say?? hmmp... I understand that I should think positively in order to be happy, but understand doesn't means that I can do it, ok?? I'm not going to mention what happened in the past few days!!!! Not worth mentioning... Keep me occupied please, I really cannot stand it anymore, I want to get rid of this lifestyle.... OMG!!!!Its meaningless!!!! Can I just let my tears drop & let everyone know that i'm not doing fine???

I'm tired of pretending that I'm doing pretty well here when I actually don't enjoy it at all... Loiter around the shopping complex will be my plan for the next few weeks, but only if I'm sponsored by someone...

Its Killin' Me Softly

2008-12-16T22:21:00.005+08:00

Well, I'm back to update my blog... I'm definitely not in a good mood for the past few days. Don't ever ask me why because I, myself couldn't find out what is wrong with me..I apologize for being so moody.. Since last Sunday, I don't really talk much, I don't know why, I really don't know why.. There seems to be lots of things I'm thinking about from time to time, but when I really sit down and try to solve my so called "things", I found out that actually there's nothing there for me to solve?!?!?! I'm sorry that I couldn't make myself clear over here, I really don't know how to write it down :( And because that there is not way to solve, I take this as mood swing during my period.. Hope everyday will be better after my menses..

I don't like to face with this type of problems, especially when there's no one beside me.. I ain't blaming, TRUST ME!!!! I'm not used to share my problems with others especially when they are busy with their own things. And this makes me feel that I'm still standing on the same spot while the others have already gone so far, so far that I could hardly see them.. I really don't like to stand on the same spot for such a long time, I simply hate it, ok?? The longer you rest, the lazier you are!!! I really doesn't need such a long holiday for me to sit at home and rest..I'm tired of resting!!!

Everyone has their own problems, and my problem now is I don't have a PROBLEM!! My yesterday, today, tomorrow, day after tomorrow are almost the same..So what is the point of waking up and doing the same thing then?? When I'm free, I will start to think of all sorts of things, so I really don't want to be so free....

Looking forward to year 2009, I already have my plan for my next semester break, I will travel to some other countries, I'm sure I will!!!!! I want a packed schedule for my next semester break, I'm not going to sit at home anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Have a Merry Merry Big Christmas!!!!!

2008-12-10T23:14:00.011+08:00

We are now two weeks away from Christmas and I can't believe that I'm already looking forward to what Christmas pressies I will get this year..Hahaha.. As a Buddhist(or maybe a free thinker?? cause I seldom do the praying thingy), we do not celebrate this festival but as a teenager who lives in such a multi-racial country,so, it's common for us to celebrate all the festivals together all year round, isn't it? As for me, most of my cousins and relatives are Christians, and I will definitely get to receive Christmas pressies from my lovely cousins and relatives... People out there need not envy me, all the Christmas pressie I've receive is not what I would like to receive:) hehehe...Not that the pressie is not nice, but just don't find it practical.. But still, millions thanks to my lovely cousins and sister who is willing to pick up an additional item out from the shelf and give it to us:) And we always know that Jesus love us, but please, do understand that Buddha love us too, Nabi Mohammad as well:)

As I'm flipping through the Cleo Magazine of the month, there are just toooo many things that attract my attention.... Com'on, I want every single piece of them in my hands!!!! Is it that I am the one who is being too greedy, trying to ask for more and more as time goes by?? Or I'm just that little girl who is so pity that don't ever have a chance to posses such luxurious goods?? I consider myself in between both of it maybe:) But I'm very sure of something, I'm broke!!!! The last gift I bought to reward myself was last year I think:)How good if Santa Clause really exist?? I will make sure I save enough of money to buy some socks back and hang it at every single window in my house, and the gifts are there when i open my eyes:) Hahahahahahahahahahahhaha...ridiculous, huh??

Actually, I'm wondering why Christians used to buy gifts for their younger generations and the adults exchange Christmas presents among each other during Christmas but Chinese normally gives out ang pow??? Not to say that ang pow is not good, as an accountant, it is always better for us to see cash than any other thing:) Hmmmm, you know what??? There's things that you won't get it for yourself, isn't it??? Just imagine, when you get you ang pow money, will you go get yourself a sexy pyjamas, perfume or even branded shower gel for yourself?? all of us find it not necessary rite?? But when there is someone who buy it for you, you will tend to appreciate it... Am I right to say so?? Chinese Mans & Girls!!!! Time to buy gifts for your loved ones instead of giving them Ang Pow, or if you can afford, get them both!!!!!

Urhemm, its my habit to have a list of 10 to list out what I want for Christmas!!! This is merely a list, a list for me to refer back to it few years later and laugh at myself for being so silly!!! Hahaha....... As for Year 2009, what it want for Christmas is:

My Darling will be always there for me and treat me like a VVIP of his life for the rest of the years ( darl, you can do it, rite??)
PJ from La Senza :) (com'on, every girl should have one of that rite???)
A L'occitane/ Body Shop/ Crabtree & Evelyn gift set (wow, that's nice)
iPod Nano??? (i always want this gadgets but when I have the money, this is not the 1st thing i will get, that's y i nit this as a gift)
One day out with my darling and eat without budget (ahahah, this must be super fun!!!)
Digital Camera (I'm planning for a backpacking tour to one of the Asian countries, so....i need it, can you see how bad the quality of the pic is??)
A toiletries bag ( I travel quite frequently, i think i will sure need this)
A box of nicely packed Reese Chocolate from US (we can only get this from Mandarin Oriental in Malaysia, the best peanut butter choc I have ever had)
A white color mouse for my white color laptop (my this mouse sucks!!!)
I want my loved ones to be happy & healthy always

He Is Now 21 !!!!! _

2008-11-30T18:36:00.012+08:00

Happy birthday my darling :) You're now 21!!!!!! Hope you enjoyed your weekend with your family, friends and of course, ME ya :p Spending your Friday in Penang with your buddies and parents, Saturday in Genting and KL with parents, and Sunday in KL with family and back to Penang, I'm with you throughout the weekend:) I'm glad to be there and share every moment with him:) He loves all his pressie and at the moment he's trying to find what what is in the wrapping paper, he just looks like a small boy and gets amazed with the gifts inside, so adorable :) and I'm so happy when looking at him at that moment:) I LOVE you darling, I really do:) So, I think you will have a post for every single thing happened during the whole weekend huh?? But even if you don't, I think you will remember it forever :) Together with all the greetings from all your friends, I hope that all your birthday wishes will come true and all the best in your future:) We will be celebrating your 31st, 41st and all your birthdays together, I promise.

Ahhh, I will upload the b'day pressie I bought for my SPECIAL him :) Spent almost one whole month to think of what he actually needs, but in the end, I found out that he have almost everything that he needs, and so, I decided to go for something special:) Necklace is the first thing appears in my mind when i think of his pressie:) I started to look for some nice necklace that suits him well, my first choice is actually the Swatch Bijuox, Lumbre collection, but when I pay a visit to Penang with my mum, I've tried to find a chance to ask him whether he likes the necklace or not, but it seems like he doesn't like it very much:) So, no point for buying that:) When I'm back in KL, I went to some of the shops that sells necklace for man, it's a tough mission, really really hard to find:( I asked my friend to give me some idea, they did, but i don't like it!! I want something that is really "SPECIAL". So at last, I decided to buy a necklace from Royal Selangor:) It's a pendant actually, a Bat pendant, but it comes with a black cotton cord:) It looks nice on him!! The reason why this is my final choice is because that Bat is an emblem of happiness and longevity,on the other hand, Bat and blessing sounds similar in Chinese, this is what the sales person told me:) After that, I start to think of changing this necklace into something that really belongs to him, and the only way to do it is to engrave his name on it:) I asked to sales person whether they provide such a service but she say engraving service is only available at their factory:) On the next day, I drove to the factory, and asked them to do it for me:) While I'm waiting at the customer service counter, someone popped out and say:" Sorry miss, our machine is temporary busy, can you come and collect on tomorrow?"I was like,"what the..............!!!!!,only a few alphabets!!!", but what to do?? I want his name to be on the necklace, I want it!! So have to go to collect it on the second day:( Luckily "Y.S.C" was nicely engraved on the pendant and the factory is not so far away from my house:) I accomplished my Project A in 3 days time :)

After that, time for Project B!! I want a special birthday card that will impress him when I gave it to him:) I went to Memory Lane and Hallmark in Mid Valley and Jusco, its nice, but I couldn't find a card that tells everything I wanted to tell him, and the card is not made only for Yeoh Siong Chin, so again, no point for buying it.. A few days later, I saw a caricature art on the internet, that was so nice, I fell in love with it!! And so, I started to look for someone that provide such a service, I know that Pasar Seni do have such drawing artiste doing this, I went there to have a look, but not up to my standard :p, the caricature doesn't look lively at all!!! I went back, and started to find for another place:) One of my friend told me that Amcorp Mall do have a fella drawing this type or thing, I went there of course, and at least that is better than what I saw in Pasar Seni, although the price in Amcorp Mall is slightly higher:) Its okay, only once in my lifetime I guess:) That fella named Ghazalli or whatever say he needs one to two weeks to draw my pic, but at that time, I don't the time for him to do it, I tell him it must be ready before 27th as I'm going to Penang on the 28th morning!!! So he say he will TRY to make it!!! What to do?? All I can do is wait lo.. Luckily I received a message from him on the 26th saying that my caricature is ready:) I can't wait to see that!!! But I'm working on that day, by the time I reached home, I'm too tired to drive there and collect it, so I went on the next day!! The first reaction when my sister and I saw that pic is "WOW", then we started to laugh:) Just too cute, the cartoon face of my darling in a Manchester United jersey and his jersey number is 21!! Haha...(worth the money). Oh ya, the uncle wish my darl happy birthday too:) But the only thing is that, I need to laminate that thing to make it look even nicer and easier for me to take care:) but the sad case is, most of photo shop doesn't have laminating service for A3 paper!! Go and ask if you don't believe it!! But luckily, I found 1 near my house:) After laminating, I wrote my message on the back page.. At last, Project B, done!!!!

I only think of buying him that two pressie as I'm not so rich to afford more:) But after the two gifts are ready, I start to think that my darl maybe will need a pair of canvas shoe:) But it is so weird to get people a pair of shoe on people's 21st birthday:) I asked my mum for solution, and she ask me to get him a complete set of apparels so that it won't look so weird:) And because of that, I come out with project C :) With some limited capital and also time, I need to really make full use of everyone, every minute and every cents:) I went to get shirt from GAP, its costy, and they are now selling winter clothings, so hard to get something look young!! Then Topman, I have 10% discount as I'm a member, so I decided to get it from there:) Bought two muscle T for him and we straight away go to Giordano course I thought things will be cheaper compared to other brands, but the price tags there proved me wrong!!! We started hunting for pants and we bought a blue Bermudas that goes well with both of his muscle T, and the last shop is Converse!!! Trying to look for something special again!! Want a pair of shoe that is so common but with an unique design:) What to do? I want my darl to be SPECIAL, because he is sooooooooo SPECIAL to me:) And when he wore that pair of shoe on his birthday party, I proved myself right this time, admiring myself for choosing that pair of shoe for him:)

Day before I depart to Penang, I start to think of a way to arrange all the pressie into a more presentable way:) I have a box for the apparels but the thing that make me headache is the caricature:) How to hide it until the 30th ??? If won't be a surprise if he found out on his own:) At last, I hide the box inside my luggage bag and covered with my clothes and bend the caricature and place it in my luggage bag too:) I need to be super careful when carrying my luggage bag:) The box is no longer nice when I reached Penang but luckily the caricature is still in perfect condition :)

I'm here now to announce that my project for my darling's 21st birthday is successfully done!!! I give myself an "A-" for this time:)

Today and Future

2008-11-19T23:50:00.009+08:00

Another 9 more days and I'll be in Penang with my darl!!! Looking forward to that day because I want a great hug from HIM!!! I miss him so much, I meant it and I really do!!! Can't wait to spend my all my time with HIM!!!

Let's briefly jot down what I've done in today... Well, I come back from dreamland at 1.30p.m., and as usual, no breakfast, no lunch for me, my first meal of the day is my dinner.. I had a packet of nasi lemak with rendang around 5 something, then a packet of M&M's chocz at night while I'm surfing the internet:) That's all!!! Anyone who wants to get thinner, you guys are encouraged to follow my diet:) With all the snacks, junk food, rice, noodles, ice cream, carbonated drinks, or anything you like, and you will still reach your target weight within 1 month!! Hehehe Y choose Marrie France??Apart from that, i spent most of my time sticking to the TV or my lappie:) Doesn't sound interesting huh?? But what to do? When you got no money in your pocket, stay at home is the best thing you can do:) And because of this, I want to be successful in my future!! I want to do whatever I want to do!! I want to control the money and not money control me!! I don't need to be super rich, as long as it is enough for me to spend, that's good enough :) I want a good life, and I'm ready to go for it!! But on the other side, I must be very sure that what can bring me a good life??? Marry a rich guy? Sell off all the assets my dad gave me? Be a whore? Perhaps:) But definitely not for me:) What I'm going to do is study hard, and of course, study smart at the same time:) I'm want to be successful by using and applying what I have learned into my life:) I'm sort of disappointed with my 1st sem's result but I'm sure that will be the last time!! I want good result, simply because I need it!! Forgive me for being so realistic at such a young age:) (accountant ma :P) But trust me, its true!! Let me prove it :) Come'on people, STOP DREAMING!!!

I used to think of what type of life I desired in the future, and now, I have a rough idea of it:) I want a challenging life when I'm young and a peaceful life when I'm old^_^ Isn't it better than those who are still dreaming and refuse to look into their future?? Maybe they did, I don't know.. As we are approaching our early 20's, we shouldn't be dreaming anymore, right? To me, it is better to know what I want earlier, although in the future, it maybe differ from what I've desired, but won't be a big difference huh? That's all for today's blog, will continue my story some other day:)

One of the meaningful mail :)

2008-11-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，

总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！

*听到了吗？明白了吗？
难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
如果每个人都
懒得讲话、
懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
所以请记住：
有活力的爱情，
是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，他的男朋友很不高兴的说：你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，我以後再也不会等你了！刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了

*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。

你体会到了吗？
*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！
懂了吗？
当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
那并不代表你会选择他。
*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！

*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

*所以请记住，
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分

*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？
我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！

*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，
而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

我在默默的祝福你。*^_^*

让我们一起祝'愿天下有情人终成眷属!!!!!!!

I'm just too FREE

2008-11-14T00:07:00.005+08:00

Ah, nothing much, I'm just too free and....................update my blog is the only thing I can do at this time:) I am now on my bed, with my lappie on my lap, switched off my room light, turned on the radio and update my blog.. Actually I'm waiting for HIM to reply my message but I think he must be accidentally entered into his so called dreamland and the signal there is just too weak for him to reply my message.. He must be pretty tired, I guess... He goes to work at 8a.m. every morning and attend his water polo training on every monday, wednesday and friday:) Whenever he has training, he will be back at home quite late and won't be able to have enough rest for the next day!! But he insist to go for it, and of course, I will fully support him:) Hope that he knows how to take care of himself.. He will turn 21 in another 16 days, he is officially legal to do anything he wants, he can even get married with someone without the consent of his parents, he will be able to step into the casino, and last but not least, he will be participating in the next general election:) Hahaha..I wonder what is the feeling of turning into 21:) I will have to wait for another 2 years to write down my feelings:) Haha..

My "Kampung Boy" darling.......

2008-11-09T23:21:00.003+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog for quite some time because of the internet connection... And now, everything back to normal and I can continue updating my blog whenever I want to do so.. I just came back from Penang with my mum and my youngest sista, went there on friday noon and spend our weekend there with my hubby:) he went for a hair cut, a very cool yet cute hair cut:) a nice try my dear!!! It is nice when he style it, and it looks like the "Ahmad" in Kampung boy without styling his hair.. hehehe... I like it!!! It's so cute:) Enjoyed myself with my darl in Penang, although we only spend a weekend together, but i still love it!!

生病

2008-10-20T22:15:00.001+08:00

我啊，跟病毒打战，结果输了。。。。。。
导致我，生病了！！
没有很严重，不过很不舒服咯。。
喉咙不舒服，非常非常不舒服！有时很干，有时很痒，有时很痛~~~
有很轻微的发烧，整身的筋骨痛得要命！！
这几样东西，足以让我叫苦连天了！！
最惨的是，他不在我身边陪着我，没有可以依靠的肩膀。。。很惨吧？？
生病真的很恐怖！！！

颓废的我

2008-10-14T00:03:00.012+08:00

从泰国回来有一个礼拜多了，在这一个礼拜里，我每一天都是无所事事地，呆在家里。。晚上迟迟不睡，有时凌晨3点，有时4，5点；明天却迟迟不愿起床；有时1点多，有时2，3点。。在24小时里，我用了1/2的时间在睡觉，其余的，也都是在浪费时间。。“很闷”是我每天必说的一句话，它快变成我的口头禅了。。天啊！！我是怎么了？？我的生活怎么那么无聊？怎么那么不精彩？看见朋友每个渴望假期的到来，我却不喜欢放假，恨不得快快结束，好让我能到学校上课。。三个月，整整三个月，我总不能三个月都坐在家里吧？很想去旅游，原本在计划着去新加坡玩个3，4天，但是，银行里的钱，没剩下多少，左想右想，还是打消了这个念头，决定明年5月中再去吧。。看着朋友每个节目一篓篓，我的节目却是电视节目：（有时想久了，眼泪有想流出来的感觉，鼻头酸酸似的。。算了吧，人家什么都没有，就是有钱；而我，什么都有，就是没有钱。。这2年来，我很少问父母要钱，尤其是今年，申请了贷款，没有必要都没有想他们要钱。。家里的环境没有以前好，他们总有他们的烦恼。。家里的事还是别提了，否则又要为家里烦了。。所以啊，我没有钱每天跟不同的朋友出去玩，出享受假期。。我有想过要做工，可是我自己要做什么工连我自己都不懂。。售货员？我嫌它学不到东西，到了最后，还有可能为自己惹上麻烦。。当初级的会计师？别人可没有要请我们这种只做两三个月，又没工作经验的，没有人介绍，不行的。。当兼职模特儿？我的老板肯定把我杀了！更何况，我自己也不想为了那几百块而学坏了。。。所以啊，现在只好找那些只有做WEEKEND的工了。。希望找到，好让自己没有那么闷！！

Life together with him after 434 days "我们的434天"

2008-10-12T01:56:00.009+08:00

As I refer to the calender earlier on, today is 12th October 2008, I guess everyone know this right? Do check with your calender if you are no so clear about today's date:) But, how many of you know that today is the 434th of my ongoing relationship with my darling?? So, what is the first thing flick through your mind when you are reading this thing? Is there anyone who have these "non of my business?" , "so what?" or "who cares?" thinking in your mind? Yar, sad to say, it really has nothing to do you all, except for the HIM & HER :) But, come on, since non of your business, why are you still reading this? If you are not to care bout this, I think you better stop reading this blog, only for this blog, cause it will be a little bit boring cause really NON OF YOUR BUSINESS..haha...I'm just joking le, frankly, the main intention to write this blog is to show off, want to show off my most precious thing to you guys, but in order to make this sounds nicer, I would say I want to share some of my sweet memories here:) haha..someone there must be laughing at this:) It's ok, laugh all you can:)

Ok, lets get back to today's topic: Life together with him after 434 days. To make things clear, "him" refers to Mr. Yeoh Siong Chin, you might be thinking,OMG,who is this man??!!! He is neither famous nor rich in nationwide, haha....But to me, he is my VVVVVVVVVIP :) why? please read on.

Today is not our anniversary or what special day for us. I just don't know why suddenly I want to write this thing:) There's even a Chinese version down there and also some lovely pics:) This is merely a normal blog, no hidden messages, no other intention:) You know what, I'm smiling and thinking of all my happy memories when I'm writing this:)hahaha, can you imagine how sweet I am now?? Its like, ants are all over my body!!!!!

I'm sitting here on my bed, trying to recall back when was the last time he makes me really mad at him? But I could hardly remember it, mostly is because that he had never make me mad at him, not even ONCE!!!! Am I right?? Ummmph, I wonder....But of course, I NEVER want it to happen!!!! hehehe...Of course there are times that we have different idea on one particular thing, the best example is politic issues:), when he show his attitude, and his temper(the cranky him); or maybe when I'm not in the mood, when my aunt visits me, when I'm over the limit, when I'm bossy, etc..... I admit that we do have some arguments among each other, but but but but, which couple do not experience this in their relationship? huh? I'm talking about those relationships that last for one year and above. hehe.. What is great is that we've always managed to find the so called equilibrium point(econ terms), which means that we managed to stop arguing at one point before it gets worse, to me, this is great:) haha, its time to teach you guys some useful thing, we must know how to tolerate, it works, trust me!! Somehow, we will lose control with ourself once in a while, but don't make it a habit ya!!! hehe....

I believe that he might not be a dream man for most of the girls, but, sorry to say, I found that he is the best of all, TO ME, he is definitely the BEST!!! (darling, happy hor??) hehe... This is a fact, not trying to make him happy!!!! He doesn't have the good temper like what his dad has when his dad is with his mum(darl, you have to admit that),the max also he raised his volume, only when the weather is super duper hot and I accidentally hurt him by pinching or biting his way too hard:) please be reminded that I'm not an abusive girlfriend k? Oh ya, he shouted at me, ONCE!!!!!some more its in front of his brother..But I think, he learnt his lesson:)hehe...Those are the exceptions, it rarely happened...Other than this, he seldom gets mad at me, even when i merajuk or showing my bossy attitude:)Hehehe...I love the way he take care of me, giving me all sorts of surprises, sayang me and etc......(too much to write)and something worth to mention, his family treats me very good too.Good in the sense of I always get to eat what I want to eat when I'm in Penang.. hahah, lucky me!! I'm so happy to to be with him, overcome all sorts of things in our lifes together with him:) From the first day, 434days back till now, 434days after 4th of Aug 2007, all the memories he gave me is a wonderful, great and sweet:) I always wonder why am I so lucky to have this guy in my life!!!You know what, I'm trying to be greedy, I want this to last forever:)

What will come across your mind is, what if I jealous about something or maybe we should say someone, much appropriate right? Of course, I don't like him talking on the phone with a girl for a few hours or he flirting with someone:)vice versa. Well, I'll keep myself quite when I get jealous, to make sure that what I won't be saying something that I shouldn't have said, this is my option..And I'm not that type of people who will call the another party to give warning, this will not embarrass him, but also embarrass myself:) why must I make myself acting like a fool when I'm it is not my fault? right? This is what I won't do and what we shouldn't do!! Isn't it? As his girlfriend, I have trust in myself and also on him, I always choose to trust him:) So, I will only talk about it later or when there's a chance for me to do so:) Luckily, this type of "I don't like" stuff seldom happen, or maybe he is hiding them way too well, or else....................(need not mention)hahaha... Just now I was chatting with with one my my friend, he was trying to tell me that "Let him go, when he comes back, he's yours; if he doesn't, he will never be", its true, i tell him, and this is what I believed all this while, and he replied:"so this is the reason why your boyfriend stay so far away from u ar??"I was like,hmmmm, maybe...

Although we're not like those in long distance relationship, but whenever there's holidays or weekend, we both have to go back our home, one in KL and another one in Penang. Other than that, we spend most of our time together with each other:) Hahaha.. Maybe its because that we are forced to stay apart with each other, so whenever I get to see him after some time, I'll get super excited when I get to hug him tightly:) Can you imagine? Its like you'll never want to stop hugging him:) Hahaha, sweet huh?

Its 3.45a.m. and my eyes are closing,so its time to stop:) As a conclusion, I'm happy to be with him, I'm so satisfied with what I have now:) I love you always my dear:) Muakss Muakss...

今天2008年10月12日，我们在一起的434天。心里想要把今天记起来：）不是什么周年纪念日，也没有什么特别的意义，只是单纯地把跟你在一起的434天记起来。突然间感到自己很幸福，是的，是“幸福”，并非“性福”。哈哈。。

我想了很久，很久，有那几次你真的把我气疯了？我可以说是0次，最多也只有1/2次：）有时意见不和，有时你的一些行为，有时你的坏脾气，有时我心情不好，有时我的“那个”来，有时我野蛮，有时我霸道，但是我们最多也是顶嘴，不睬对方，倒没有两个互相大骂起来的经验：）真的，在我
的记忆中，我们真的不曾大吵，当然，我也不希望有这么一天的到来。希望每一次都找到所谓的平衡点，也就是说懂得何时该停下来了，尊重对方一下，毕竟，这世界上有谁是没有情绪的？

你也许不是世界上最好的男人，可是，对我而言，你是我觉得最棒的！！你不是脾气最好的人，但是你很少对我大声说话，更别说是大喊！！偶尔有大声啦，有时在车里，天气炎热得要命，我还捏你捏得太用力，有时却咬你咬得太大力：）我不是虐待狂，玩玩而已，你明白的。。除此之外，我野蛮，霸道的个性，你都没有嫌弃：）哈哈。。喜欢你尊重我的意见，喜欢你体贴，喜欢你出乎意料的惊喜，更喜欢你疼我：）还有你的家人，也对我好好喔：）很开心能认识到你，很开心能和你在一起，经历许多东西。从开始的第一天，到现在的434天，你给我的回忆都是美好的，是幸福的，是快乐的。我总觉得“天啊，我怎么那么幸运啊？”我要永远永远都这么幸福：）你是属于我一个人的！！

我想，人偶尔也会吃醋吧？正常吧？我不否认我有时会吃醋，不爱人家三更半夜打给你聊近况，不爱你对人家花言巧语。。幸好这种“我不爱”的东西很少发生，否则。。。。。。。很想在此说明一下，我不是小气，也不是不大方，如果我没感觉，那就大事不妙了！！哈哈。。说真的啦，吃醋是一回事，我可不会无聊或幼稚到打去警告人家：）这种是我不做，也不应该做！！身为你的女朋友，我相信我自己，也相信我自己的男朋友：）“如果你的心里没有我，那么，把你留在身边也没有用”这道理很实用。。今天跟朋友聊天，他说：“是你的，你放走了，他也会回来；不是你的，你不放走，他自己也会走掉”我认同他的说法，的确是这样的。。。。。

我们说不上是LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP（华文不会说：P），但是，当放假或WEEKEND时，你就要回槟城，我也需要留在吉隆坡，因为我们的家就是离这么远。哈哈。。。不懂是不是因为知道不能无时无刻都跟对方一起，所以，我们总会珍惜在一起的时候。。感觉上，有时候让彼此有自己的私人空间，也是一件好事。至少，当我隔了很久没有见到他，等我那一天见到他时，我的心情是开心，是兴奋的！！有一股冲着去抱他的感觉：）哈哈，幸福吧？

总的来说，我对我现在的感情，是非常非常的满意的！！还记得跟你在泰国手牵手走沙滩时，看着我们拉长了的影子，心里有一种感觉是很难形容的。。。。谢谢你出现在我的人生里，谢谢你为我的人生增添了色彩。在我们一起携手走过每一步人生路的同时，我坚信着，只要我们珍惜，尊重，体谅对方，我们一定能长久的，是一段天长地久，海枯石烂感情：）

你知道吗？因为你，我喜欢炫耀，炫耀我有这么棒的你：）我没有后悔我的选择：）

At home..........

2008-09-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm back in KL again for my semester break after all my exams.. It's a 3 months duration semester break and the next time I'm going back to Kampar for my next semester will be January.. I hope I can full use of this 3 months come out with something, at least not sitting at home from day till night, I hate it!!! I want to work, but dunno what post i can go for, lazy to type resume, lazy to go for interviews :( :( Anyone there to introduce me some jobs?? After sitting at home for 2 days, I think i will rot if i continue doing this.. Wake up in late noon, from the TV screen, to the PC monitor and then my laptop, and I'm all alone inside my house, upstairs to downstairs, downstairs to upstairs.. LIFELESS u know??? I don't want to waste my time like this.. Another choice for me is meet up with friends.. But, first of all, I have no transport, I don't really like travelling by public transport, the people there are dangerous, illegal immigrants, rape cases, snatch theives, sex maniac etc...It will never be my first choise no matter how accessible and convenient it is, unless i really need them:) So, I will always go out with friends who have cars, better rite?? i rather pay them back for the petrol..

By the way, I'm going to Penang on friday night, darl's bro ( government officer) will be fetching me there to see me darling, really miss him so so so so so much, but by the time I reach there, it is already middle of the night :( I will spend my weekends there, and I'll be going to Koh Samui with darl and his parents on wednesday. Hope it will be a nice trip for me..According to my aunt, Koh Samui is a nice place with a lots of sandy white beaches and all sorts of entertainment. i want to take lots and lots of pictures there!!! Want to show off to friends again!! Haha.. We will be staying there for 5 days, after that will go back to Penang first and then KL when the festive season is about to finish, so that I won't get stuck in the jams, highway jams are horrible!!! no way, no way!!

What a HOT day

2008-09-17T20:21:00.000+08:00

这是我在这里的第一个用华文写的部落格。。没有特别的用意，只想用另一种方式来呈现罢了。。

今天天气特别特别的热，我快给那炎热的天气搞得我发疯了！！真的不是一般的热，是大热！！！从家里的窗口往外看就是以片绿油油的草原，再看远一点，就可以看到山了，金马仑高原也离这里不远，可是，这里的天气却跟沙漠没什么两样，究竟是为什么呢？下午起身一心想要读书，却热得什心情都被搞砸了：（到了现在，天色转黑了，什么都没又读到。。时间剩下不多了，要读要被的东西还有一大堆，怎么办呢？看来又要开夜车了。。我曾经很努力的想去读书，什么都不理，可是，整身粘粘的，要我怎么能专心读书？？这一次的考试成绩肯定不理想了，唯有下次努点吧。。无论怎么辛苦，都要回家读了。。。

好了，在此告一段落。。。。

Towards the end of my exam

2008-09-15T18:30:00.001+08:00

It's time to update my blog after so long, left with one subject in my final exams, after that, I'll be enjoying the three months long semester break, will only be back in Kampar after CNY i think :) Maybe I will miss this place when I'm in KL, but, no worries, I can always come back whenever I want :) First semester is over, i don't think I did well in my finals :( maybe my room in Kampar is not a good place for me to study? Or maybe because of the weather here? Nothing goes into my hard drive :( But, why I can do better in my foundation in KL, a place with sooooooooooo much of distractions????????

Oh, guess what, I have a so called "friend"+ "classmate"+"group mate"+"housemate" who is super duper KIASU.... everything i ask her, she will ask me to refer to my notes, if I know what is it about in the notes, I wouldn't have asked her..Just now we sat for our accounting paper, before we go for it, she asked me some questions, and of course, I don't know how to answer, its tricky? or hard? I don't know, i just know that I've tried to answer but I cannot get the correct answer. And what happen was, the question came out in our paper, and for sure, i can't balance in my balance sheet. After the exam, when I was walking to the car park with my darling while discussing about the question, that fella pop-ed up and tell the the exam is easy!!!!!! then only she tell me there's a formula to find the answer!!!!!! On that moment, I really feel like giving her a slap on her face!! Damn It, I wonder why can't she just tell me there's a formula for that question in the morning??? Can anyone tell me why can someone be so selfish?? Not to say your marks will be deducted after you give me the formula?? why don't you just share with me?? Hmm, from now on, I'm not going to share any tips with her!!!!!!!! NO way!!!!!

Hmmmm, tonight I'll be sleeping alone, the first time in Kampar:) my room mate went back to Klang, and i don't want to ask that KIASU fella come and sleep with me, must show her I can do anything without her!!!!!Geram betul!!
It's time to plan what to do during my holiday!!!First of all, I'll be going to Koh Samui with darl and his parents, looking forward to it!!!! First time to Thailand!! Can buy nice Thailand bag, can buy nice kaftan, flip flops, accessories, clothing's............... a lots of things to buy but with limited capital :( How i wish i can bring 1k there and shop till i drop!!!! WOW, when was the last time i do my shopping like nobody's business like that??must be years back i think, I can hardly remember :) and when will be the next time for me to shop to i drop??Hopefully the things there are cheap:) hehehehe... after this trip, most probably i will go Singapore with my auntie, and my darling??perhaps.. I miss Singapore, a heaven for all the branded stuff!!! There are more brands and varieties compared to Malaysia, but.......... the exchange rate is high, RM1k can buy nothing nice in Singapore :( So, still Thailand the best, to me.... hahaha.. but i dun have to worry about my hospitality in Singapore because i got my aunts and cousin there :) I can just spend all my money on shopping..Hahahaha... OK, after all my trips,I'm going to work, want to gain some working experience, not a promoter for sure, something that will help me in my future.. But I wonder who's going to hire :) Need help !_! Hope can earn some money from it, and can go Penang once in a while to pay a visit to my parents in-law and of course, my Hubby :) I'm gonna miss him like crazy for sure:)How i wish I spend all my time with him, that will be perfect :) hehe...

Thats all for today, will update when I'm free :) Have a nice day:)

2008-09-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

Another blog from me, it's 1.33a.m now, I'm in my room, trying my best to stuff everything about law in my mind, but it's hard, really!!! Law is drivin me crazy!!! This judge held this fact in this case and another judge apply the facts in another case; this Act with this section of law; that Act with that section of law..how I am going to answer all the questions in this coming thursday afternoon with only two Acts?? T_T this is only the second paper in my finals, there's still 3 more papers to go after my law paper!!! gosh, how i wish i can finish all the test in one day!!! then i can start to enjoy my holiday!! Just now went out for dinner with my darling. I'm not hungry actually, but just want see him and want to go out to take some fresh air, stay at home for the whole day, study, study, and study.. Lifeless huh?? what to do?? Oh ya, guess what, i'm broke!! left 30 bucks for 2 weeks, what a pity:( I'm pretty rich when i'm back in Kampar for the first day but now, i'm pretty poor:) hehe.. just now half way through my studies, i clicked on some of my friend's blog, i wonder why all of them seems to be very unhappy with their life??why?? I'm happy with my life!! sometimes i do wonder, if there's no problems or difficulties in their life, will those people be happpier?? or they will still blaming be everything and everyone except themself?? come on my friends, be positive!!!! I really think that I am the lucky one :)

2008-08-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

Haihz, finally found some time for me to write a blog for today:) I just came back from aunt's place, went there for a so called family gathering dinner, nothing spectacular actually, just that the connection for phone and internet SUCKS!! i would rather stay at home or go Penang with my darling.. at least there's someone for me to talk to :) erhem, wrong decision made by me again:) hehe.. now started to miss my darlin but still have to wait another 3 more days for me to see him again in Kampar:) sad huh? hopefully tomorrow will b a better one:) want to go shopping and really hope i can get myself a pair of CROCS, i really lke CROCS but i wonder why my darling don't like me to buy CROCS, i really wonder why.. can anyone tell me the reason? what is so bad about CROCS? everytime we mention about CROCS, its either me or him will get mad :( may be tomorrow can get without any argument?because he is not there to scold me..
Hmmm, i need a pair of spec, i really do..but my mum likes to drag until the last minute. i wonder when only i get to buy a pair of spec, i wonder when only the NEXT WEEK she keep on tellin me will comes true.
That's all for today's blog. I'm pretty tired but i still need to wait for my darl to reach Penang safely only i will go to bed:) Nitez.....